Why can’t I choose one topic to blog about? Why can’t I choose a straight career path? ‘Follow your passion’, they say, write about that. …but I have so many…or does that mean I have none?
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about where my strengths and weaknesses lie and what I like most about my job. In what direction should I be going? Where do I want to go…etc. I felt that I didn’t have any specific skills. Not being able to make that SWOT for myself, I started reading, googling and talking to people about it.
Right around that time I was invited to attend a management course (from work) focusing on coaching and leading a team. The first thing we had to do was take the MBTI-personality test. I was looking forward to knowing the result. Finally I was going to know, from a scientific and reliable test what kind of person I am. Yes, just pigeon-hole me and tell me where to go, please. I was so disappointed to find out that my score was ambiguous (although I still believe, after reading the different types, that I qualify as ENTP). The coach said that I should embrace being a ‘generalist’, but I didn’t know what to do with that information.
It became clear to me that I thrive on learning, exploring, and mastering new skills. I am excellent at bringing disparate ideas together in creative ways. This makes me an innovator and problem solver. (I am using Emilie’s words because she IS a native English speaker ;-)) But not knowing about ‘multipotentiality’ I only felt ‘lacking a focus’. Something everybody should have or has, …euh…except for me…
Not giving up on my search, I found ‘Good.Co’ where I read the term multipotentialite. I clicked through to Wikipedia and to Emilie Wapnick’s blog ‘Puttyhole’, and felt a rush. Just as Mark Douglas says:’ When I started scanning over the page I had a flood of emotions throughout my entire body. I didn’t realise there was a word that described me so well.’
I have been trying NOT to pursue too many interests, because I didn’t see how that could be fruitful. I have been parroting ‘You can’t do it all’, and ‘you have to choose and stick to something’ for so many years now that I can’t just -by having this flash of insight- change my whole life. Mainly because of the pitfalls Barbara Sher describes here: “at some point, Scanners who never finish anything should sit down and look at what’s really going on,” “When a Scanner hits a certain wall, they stop. Often, it’s because they’ve lost interest. But sometimes, boredom is actually just a manifestation of subconscious fear. I tell people that they must, at least once a year, push through that anxiety and stick with a project until completion. They need to experience that discipline. And there’s a chance they’ll experience twice as much joy from experiencing that unfamiliar degree of depth.”
Oh, that subconscious fear…definitely there.
In the words of ‘Napster’: So in this world of musts, it’s personally gratifying to know that not only am I not alone in my non-conformist view of wanting to pursue everything I’m passionate about, but there is an entire world of others out there to support, encourage and guide me throughout my journey.
That is why I enjoy reading this on ‘paid to exist. I’m going to let this sink in…and think about a way of integrating more and different passions in my work.
Does any of this sound familiar to you? Let me know 😉